| it has been a privilege to have had my heart broken by you. |
[Feb. 17th, 2012|10:38 pm] |
upon finishing a sad book - The Fault in our Stars by the fantastic Mr. John Green if you will,
i got up from my chair and walked to my bed,
and subsequently lay on top of the sheets in a semi-foetal position,
feeling my heart beat, loudly, and my fingers jerk, involuntarily,
as something akin to clarity and awareness started to fill the air around my body,
and it's not mortality, that is not something i was made aware of,
rather it's the fact that i am well.
healthy, and probably perfect, to people who are dying i am perfect,
even though i am in a disastrous state brought about by sleepless nights
i am made
so acutely aware
of how perfect, how fortunate i am.
to live each day wondering if it might be your Last Good Day,
and here we are, we throw
i think we pretty much throw
our days away.
and maybe it is apt,
but i am 22 in 2 days.
and i have not yet pushed myself out of my morbid sobreity
what i am saying is that i am still in this stage of wonder at my own state of glorious health.
... hey i am cancer-free.
ideally i would be grabbing at my days with a renewed energy,
but i cannot. not right now.
and what does it mean to live each day to the fullest.
i don't think i know what that means.
maybe i am afraid to know what it means.
maybe i am too tired right now to want to know.
but i am floating;
i could float on for a very long time.
and i just wanted to tell myself
to awaken. not to wake up, but to awaken.
there is a beauty we have forgotten to see.
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| concert woes |
[Sep. 14th, 2011|12:49 am] |
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when they schedule that band you told yourself you'd see before you die
on the same night, at the same time,
in the same city,
as your 2 favorite rappers in the world.
trust me,
it's enough to make you wanna CUTTTTTTTTTTSOMMEEEEEBODDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. |
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| first blog post in forever about some lame meme |
[Jun. 20th, 2011|10:53 am] |
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as i was saying on twitter.. i'm so bored/ unwell at work that i decided to do a silly little music meme for kicks.
self-amusement ensued. choice picks here:
How would you describe yourself?
Fast Car
What do you like in a guy/girl?
Power
How do you feel today?
Wild'n Cuz I'm Young
What is your life’s purpose?
Living In Twilight :/ (Bite me, Edward?)
What do your friends think of you?
Broken
What do you think of your parents?
The Price Is Wrong
What do you think about very often?
Falls Apart
What is 2 + 2?
Wild Young Hearts
What do you think of the person you like?
Curbside Prophet
What is your life story?
I Believe In A Thing Called Love
What do you want to be when you grow up?
Birthday
What do you think of when you see the person you like?
I'm Feeling You
What will you dance to at your wedding?
Lotta Love
What will they play at your funeral?
Save Me (LAWLAWLAWL)
okay this just makes me look like one of those emos who spends all their time thinking about love and the like.
over and out. |
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| Well I've seen a thousand things in one place. |
[Dec. 5th, 2010|01:34 am] |
Suddenly the thousand things I've seen were nothing more than dreams of
Of
Of you and me
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| Quiet Heart. |
[Jul. 24th, 2010|02:06 am] |
Quiet heart, may you break slowly, in the dark in the
light of it all, may
you break but not fall
apart, may it be
gentle and lovely
and quiet.
May no one hear,
and may the day close
its curtains in mourning, and
heal you.
I will
come back for you
when you are whole;
I will
tuck you in my chest
for tomorrow.
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| Yesterday was an awesome day. |
[May. 7th, 2010|12:33 pm] |
Part 1
I met ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1) thelaendler to go to the Army Market at Beach Road.
And we got lost!!! D:
We were walking around in the sweltering heat and finally finally managed to find it after getting off at the wrong busstop and looking like a suaku looking for the right one.
Buuut, I managed to buy my backpack! YAY!!
And then we went over to Orchard by means of the Circle Line! (YAY!)
and we I shopped and bought alot of stuff (as usual in preparation for my loong trip)
And then I went to do my brows at Browhaus at Wheelock.
They have much more customers here as compared to Holland V, but they are not as pushy when it comes to signing up for packages.
I had a great time with Nadia hanging out and talking and talking about everything under the hot sun.
♥
Interlude
I went over to Ion where I once again got reeled into The Body Shop's sale tactics.
As I was walking out I saw birthday-girl Laila from NUS! I was kinda like o.O cos what are the odds??
The funniest thing was that Valenie (who was one of the persons I was supposed to meet) was just behind her.
And because Laila was right in front, I only saw Laila and my eyes widened and Val thought I saw her and started waving to me.
And the next thing she knew, I was hugging Laila.
LOL.
Part 2
Valenie, ebigill and I went to eat at some Japanese restaurant whose name I can't for the life of me remember..
I think it starts with W, and I went to eat there with my Dad once and curlywurlyswirl said she likes the restaurant..
Okay.
And then we talked and talked and had lots of fun making Abby talk as much as possible.
We also unveiled our failed Match-Making plans to her.
And then we went to the red seats outside Ion and talked somemore.
It's a really nice place to hang out!
Someone beside us started smoking and we were like blehh
But then 5 seconds later, a security lady asked her to stop.
Then Val actually said Awesome! and griiinned at the lady, and the lady smiled back. HAHAHA.
I'm sure these security people love to be affirmed for the jobs they do, instead of being given dirty looks all the time.
Just as we were about to go home, we discovered these cool Your Singapore photo things. (pics on Facebook)
They were totally innovative and awesome and we had soo much fun taking funny photos of ourselves!
The only downer was that I was dressed so cui-ly. Totally unsuitable for coming down the runway!
But we had a great time :)
♥ ♥
And then I came home super late,
And managed to settle all my phonecalls, which just made me relieved.
Also managed to talk somemore to my friends online.
Felt very happy-tourist because I was wearing a tshirt, shorts, slippers, bangles, and carried a backpack.
Which was kinda a new and exciting experience to me.
I kinda felt free-er. No idea why. (Maybe also cos I haven't been to town since February)
Yep, so that was my fantastic and wonderful day.
Now I'm gonna go meet my dad and we are going down to Funan to get me my new camera! :) |
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[Mar. 9th, 2010|11:35 pm] |
This is the moment that you know
That you told her that you loved her, but you don't
You touch her skin and then you think
That she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, she is beautiful, but she don't mean a thing to me
As tiny vessels oozed into your neck
And formed the bruises
That you said you didn't want to fade
But they did and so did I that day
So one last touch and then you'll go
And we'll pretend that it meant something so much more
But it was vile, and it was cheap
And you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me
Yeah, you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me
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[Feb. 28th, 2010|11:42 pm] |
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"When I am sad I move really slowly. It’s like the world is rushing by and there is no more blood in my body but tar instead. I cannot move any faster.
When I am sad I lock myself in my room and dim the lights; put the music on and close my eyes till the tears come.
When they are gone and sleep takes over, I give in just so my heart can repair itself for tomorrow."
Sunday, October 28, 2007 | 11:51 PM
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| hands down this is the best day i can ever remember, always remember |
[Feb. 20th, 2010|01:37 am] |
my heart is yours to fill or burst
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry
whichever you prefer
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| How To Be Great |
[Jan. 16th, 2010|12:09 pm] |
1. Be Original.
One of the starting blocks of greatness is orignality. Why would anyone want to do what someone has already done?
There ain't nothing great about that.
2. Do Not Ride On Coattails.
To draw and analogy from the latest season of Survivor: Samoa, Natalie White did win the title of Sole Survivor in the end, but unfortunately she is going to be forgotten as soon as you say French Toast. And this is simply because she rode on Russell's coattails. She wasn't original in her gameplay. Who is everybody going to remember? Russell Hantz, that's who.
Why am I going on about this? Because this is a very crucial point and you need to remember that greatness far surpasses success. In simple mathematical terms, Success ≠ Greatness.
3. Never Bank On Past Successes.
You see, this is what your teachers will tell you. Learn from experience. Darlings, once and for all, that is bullshit.
Okay, learn from your failures, but never get complacent about previous success.
The most carnal sin would be to bank on riding someone else's coattails to success.
4. Never Give Up.
What would have happened if Moses had told God that there was no way he was gonna lead the thousands of people out of Egypt?
Yeah, I don't know either. But anyway, you probably would not even be here right now.
Greatness comes to those who push and persevere no matter the circumstance, because they know breakthroughs are a-coming.
And this, you need to internalise. Make it your life-long mantra.
5. Believe In Yourself.
This is the fifth and final rule in the book. And one of the most important, yet, sadly overlooked.
How do you become great if you do not even believe you are great?
Don't just say: I don't know.
Yes, you don't. So go find out, go do it by yourself.
And remember what the Bible says. 2 Timothy 4:7. Fight the good fight, finish the race, and keep the faith.
And if this is not the best advice I can give you dear juniors/friends/loved ones, then I have nothing else to say.
Peace.
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